Last Wednesday Jacob and I found ourselves at the Chinese Theater for the premiere of this film which was produced by the good ole employer and payer of most bills Rhodes and for those reasons I will refrain from saying too much about the movie...except that neither Emma Thompson nor Jeremy Irons attended the premiere.  

I don't have any prom-esque pictures for you. Just this one of Jacob biting his lip and that will have to suffice. 

I thoroughly enjoyed the experience. We’ve been to similar events before, but I’m sure I’ll always vainly enjoy seeing our name on The List. And the after parties are always top notch. Free food. Free drinks. Fancy hotels. Over the top décor. I mostly want to just retreat to the one open seat (Oh, wait. This couch is reserved for celebrities? And that one too? Oh all of them? Smile. Nod. Scurry away.) to drink in peace and talk to Jacob whilst eyeing the room for famous people. In no other circumstance do I catch eyes with strangers as often as I do at these parties, because everyone else – just like me – is looking around for famous people.

But the wifey didn’t get to hole up in a corner with her glass of red and instead had to go socialize with the coworkers. I don’t do a good job at this. I’m constantly juggling a plate of food, a glass of wine, and shaking hands with people while racking my brain to remember if I’ve met them before. At one point we were talking with the head of Jacob’s department, and I took a bite of salad and felt some roasted beet go tumbling out of my mouth. I figured it wasn’t too noticeable, and I didn’t want to draw any attention, so I played it cool, kept chitchatting, and internally apologized to the wait staff who’d soon have to clean up my droppings. The apology was ultimately unwarranted, however, because fifteen minutes of “hellos” and “how are yous” later I found the bit of food clinging to my bicep.

The night ended when the dessert was too sweet to warrant seconds and the memory of a 5:30 wake up was calling me back to my bed. But not without hi-fiving this old friend on our way back to the parking garage.

Such is another brief encounter with Hollywood since I know you, and I know you’re all just red-carpet-starved.

Mardi Gras Stings

I'm sitting on my couch eating cookie dough and thinking about the impending darkness of Lent. 

When I first converted to Catholicism I LOVED Lent. It was my favorite liturgical season. Today I get tired just thinking about the sacrificial lengths I went to then. I couldn't get enough of the privation before the feast, and I would make lists and lists of self-denying, soul-ennobling activities. Now, a few years in, I've calmed down a lot - maybe the cool Catholic kids will finally start hanging out with me.

I was pretty chill last Lent. I think my primary sacrifice was avoiding Jacob's and my "signature fight." I don't know if every couple is this way, but it didn't take long for me to realize that Jacob and I only had one real fight - we had it over and over again to be sure - but it was always the same one. It always boiled down to a central issue. So last Lent my goal was to avoid the triggers to this fight. It was a really rewarding experience, chock full of lip-biting. I'm currently trying to think of a similar sacrifice for the impending lenten desert and simultaneously devouring the cookie dough in case said sacrifice happens to involve sugar or chocolate or...raw eggs.

We went to a supremely awkward Mardi Gras at church this evening. We are constantly hopping between two parishes here in LA. One is in Beverly Hills and has a lovely choir and the other hosts Jacob's Knights of Columbus chapter. The two parishes have rivaling Mardi Gras parties. The Beverly Hills one is tripping with all kinds of cool. It's filled with young-ish people and lasts until the early morning hours, mountains of crawfish and cocktails. But the Knights...well at the Knights' party the florescent lights stay on in the parish hall. The forty people in attendance offer a median age of around 70. The jazz band is decent but almost everyone leaves during the band's first break and people start cleaning up. The band returns to about three elderly couples who unabashedly rule the dance floor for the last set. The dessert table is filled with lemon flavored bundt cakes. And it's perfect. I love it so much. And that's where we were tonight. Jake was adorably mellow throughout the evening since it was way late for him. He sat in my lap and watched the band for about fifteen minutes, and that is a toddler record for him by far. One sweet little lady introduced him to the joy of Mardi Gras beads and he adorned himself with every strand he saw.

 
It was adorable, and Jacob and I shamelessly played parent paparazzi as he pulled necklace after necklace over his little towhead. 

Jacob has spent the last half hour moving the beehives about fifteen feet away from their current location - at our landlord's insistence. It's unwise to move hives in such close proximity to their old location because the similar surroundings cue them to head to their old spot instead of acclimating to their new one. Even though it's dark and most of the bees are in the hive, a few minutes ago, so many lost bees were attracted to the light in the living room that it sounded like rain hitting the windows.

So I turned off the lights. And now I'm blogging in the dark. But I must go because Jacob is insisting that I come "take care of him." He guesses he got stung about fifteen times and even feels a sting on his "buttox." 

Saturday night. QED.

Blogoversary Thoughts on a Quiet Morning

The Jacobs went to the gym this morning and to score some 2/1$ avocados at Sprouts. So here I sit, sipping on the last mildly warm drops of my chai tea reflecting on two whole big years of maintaining a blog - however spotty.

I wouldn't have remembered that today was any type of -versary except that it is Groundhog Day. Which for the UDer is a sacred day of dancing and music and ideally sylvan inebriation (i.e. a kegger in the woods). So tonight I will be meeting up with other alumni to enjoy some free beer and toast the alma mater.

Life is very different today than it was two years ago when I started this blog. Two years ago I was pregnant and finishing grad school and we lived in a tiny converted garage that they have sense demolished and replaced with a mega mansion. Two years ago we'd just lost our beehive and were about to lose our primary income. Two years ago we hadn't met our son.

I could list all the ways our lives have changed in the last couple of years for a VERY long time, but it's more difficult to talk about how I have changed. But I know I've changed a lot. Certainly, I'm still the same person generally: the same quirks, the same annoying habits. I still get uncomfortable and frustrated whenever I try to do my hair or paint my nails. I still tackle all types of labor intensive projects - sewing, crocheting, food fermenting, gardening - without ever mastering any of them.  I still make all kinds of To Do lists and almost never complete the tasks.

So perhaps I'm pretty much the same person I was two years ago. Except now that I have a little one, I'm looking at the world from an entirely different angle, and with this new perspective I feel changed to the core.

It reminds me of a painting by an artist I once got to hear speak at a Christians in the Visual Arts (CIVA) Conference I attended as a teenager. I went to a talk by the artist Makoto Fujimara about some of his Images of Grace. He showed us a slide of one painting in particular. The painting was huge and a deep deep red. On the left side of the painting was an unassuming vertical gold line that stretched to the top of the canvas. He talked about this painting - this image of grace. In his broken English he communicated that, because of how the painting was installed, as you approach it all you see is the red. But when you arrive at the painting, when you stop and look - he said - you see the gold line. And then that is all you see. 

So. Abruptly done with my somber ramblings. Off with you to other blogs to find some chuckles. Here's a pic of Jake copying his big friend on the swing while wearing his "bastetball shoes."

 

Happy Groundhog Day!  Drink a beer like it was my idea!

Tuesday's Words

I'm constantly in admiration of people who post regularly on their blogs. I often tell myself that I would post more regularly if I had the time, but right now, I DO have the time. Jake is taking an extra long nap, my classes are planned for the week, my kitchen is clean...and yet I'm sitting here feeling like I have nothing to say. So here goes nothing.

We had a really lovely weekend. Jacob was home most of the time and I didn't have to do any tutoring (I remembered this after I'd already driven to Santa Monica...so yay for keeping my Gcalendar straight and saving gas.) We had some friends over for brunch on the patio on Sunday because the weather was lovely and breakfast casseroles are the best things in life. Jacob harvested honey yesterday. 

I went to a playgroup this morning for the second week in a row - I'm terrible at committing to things like this. I'm SO the mother that goes once, feels awkward, and then ignores the e-mail chain until they remove me. But today was a landmark day because I went for the SECOND time. And I felt awkward. And I probably will stop going.

I do really like to see how my toddler sizes up to other toddlers at these playgroups. Not in any competitive way - only because I don't have a good sense of what is Toddler Behavior and what is Jake Behavior. So when one toddler clings to his mother's pant leg, I realize maybe not every toddler runs for the exits as soon as you put him down or is obsessed with shoes or says "Happy Birthday Basketball" all day long.

I like having this perspective. Because I find myself thinking that Jake is totally normal and perhaps he's completely weird. And if he's weird, I want to know it because I don't want to be THAT mom, you know the one. Like the mom in About a Boy. The one who thinks her kid is awesome when he's actually...strange. There's nothing wrong with strange children - I prefer them -  I just want to know if my child is the strange one. He will be the one with the lunch of kale chips and quinoa bars, so that will be a strike against him.

I was talking with my sister on the phone today about my son's obsession with basketball, and she made me realize that I would probably spend my stent parenting very similarly to the way I spent my childhood. That is, following blond people to sporting events. I'd like to believe it wasn't true...

 

I mean...I'm sure he would really rather be playing an instrument or something. Yeah. Most definitely.

7 Quick Takes Friday

- 1 -

First things first. If you're into blogs of the Catholic homeschooling variety, a friend of mine just started a blog called Catholic All Year. I often marvel at how this mother of six young ones always seems to have it all together. Can you say jog and rosary before 6:30am daily mass?

I thought so. Me too.

Anyway, now she's blogging like a diva. She's got a Kids in Mass story that's totally worth the read. Some parenting book recommendations. Anyhow. Lots of relevant stuff over there...which maybe you're not that into because you're reading me...but seriously: go say hi.

- 2 -

School starts Monday. 

- 3 -

I've decided I'm not suited to this kind of job where I have to bring half the work home. I'm also pretty aware that it's the only kind of job I'll ever have. So I would love some wisdom on how to get stuff done with a needy bored toddler at home. I googled "unsupervised toddler activities" and it wasn't helpful at all...and the search probably flagged CPS so...great...

- 4 -

For instance right now he's sitting on my lap foiling all my attempts to keep his fingers off the keyboard, offering me sips of "hot tea" from a cup, and asking where all the babies went on the screen.

At least the huz is available for periodic pep chats.

- 5 -

5 is for the 5 minutes I just bought myself by leading the little man over to empty out the recycling. All about the good habits around here. 

But alas that only lasted for two minutes, and now he's scaling the chair in the living room to access the shelf of Jake contraband on a quest for his Papa's iPad. So off I trot.

I probably should've intervened before the situation reached the crisis that it did and I ended up with a back arching 30 odd pounds of tantrum on my hands, but instead I did what any self-respecting blogger would do. I documented it. 

- 6 -

Is it 6? Why, yes. I will have that glass of wine.

 - 7 -

But in all seriousness hailing back to #3: I feel like I'm productive at the expense of mothering.  Or actually. The opposite of that. I feel like I mother at the expense of being productive. 

And I feel the expense keenly. 

Some days everything falls enchantedly into place, but those are just days when Jake takes three hour naps and then contentedly bangs his hammer on the floor while I hum about my business. I try to remind myself that getting down on the floor with some blocks to appease a fussy nineteen month old is not only doing "something," it's doing something wonderful, something good, something I will miss terribly in fifteen years. But instead I glance warily at the mess in my kitchen or make to do lists in my head or sneak peeks at blogs on my phone. 

So I'd love some thoughts from those of you who've "been there."

Sorry to get all down on you. I was able to sit down and pound out the above paragraph because I plopped Jake into the tub. Now if he could spend all day in the tub, then my ducks would be in the nicest of neatest rows.  

Happy Friday to the Quick Takers and Jen who is in our little family's prayers.

By George, I think she's blogging!

You have exclaimed (per post title) and you have been correct. I'm actually blogging in today to say hi to all you lovelies (and Michael as always) (and apparently Robert).

We have been a bit under water recently. For 97% of the last 35 days I have either had a guest or was a guest. The holidays were a flurry of faces and friendlies. Our last guests for the foreseeable future left just yesterday, and now I'm in syllabus land. 

Usually I teach two sections of the same course, but this semester I'm teaching different courses so I have to write two syllabi. (Darn you, lazy students, who couldn't drag your bums out of bed for my 8am Poetry class and got it canceled and replaced by a composition course full of students who failed last semester. So yes...I am looking forward to another class full of class. )

The holidays were lovely. We spent Christmas with Jacob's family in the Northwest. See.

We unwrapped some Inuit sculptures from Jacob's mom.



We hugged some adorable babies.

Scrumptious cheeks: my nephew's

Awkwardly rosy ear: mine

 
And what would Christmas be without a fire-obsessed toddler?
 

 We then huffed on down to Texas for the New Year and a second Christmas with these cats.

In good form, my mother sent us on a treasure hunt that had us huddling in hallways

 

and trudging out in extreme weather.

 

Such were the holidays, and I'll just have to stop there because blogger is starting to give me that error message - probably because I got photo-happy? - does this only happen to me?

Have a jolly Wednesday! I'll try to be back soon.

12 in 12

Linking up with Dwija to start the year off with a farewell to 2012. My brain is fried from shopping and traveling and gift giving and more traveling and more gift giving and tex mex and a very stiff margarita...or two...maybe it was two, but I suppose I can handle some pictures.

So. Here ya go.

Life is never better than at bath time.

Head shaped ball.

Photos in the Grass.

Joys of Cosleeping

Honey Bees.

Birthday Boy.

Estes.

All. Day. Everyday.

Abu Time

Sailor

Camera Face

Cousins